yea. well. I'm leaving. I'm sticking to a different journal, because I've realized something

I LOVE YOU ALL!

but I can't post how I feel in here, because SOMEONE will bitch me out. If you REALLY want to know it, then you'll ask for it.

I'm just...I'm just done....I wish everyone could just LOVE eachother. LOVE is what brings the world together, HATE is what tears us apart.

I love you all, despite anything that you've done, don't ever think I don't. I do. And I've basically forgotten EVERYTHING everyone has ever done, it doesn't hurt, because I'm ...well, in lack of better wording, ignoring it all, and turning a blind eye again.

I love you all, keep the peace. You wanna hang out? You know my number, dial me up, and demand me over.

Like a dog, I'll wander over...

peace and love

-Kiya

Well, uhm...news flash? I'm probably moving again DX >< oh well....I moved in with my mom, I knew what would happen. We always have moved, we always WILL move. Maybe for once it'll be closer to school or something for the summer at least, if we even move within the summer...

uh, another news flash I guess? I might be ditchin' Centennial next year. Yea. Why? I don't know. I don't know if I'll even be able to get there. Alex is going to college next year for free because technically he's still "in highschool" but they're letting him go, and he's my ride. DX so I might be stuck at White Bear Highschool, which would cause a huge mental breakdown, and I would probably ditch the internet for like, 3 months until I calmed down again, and even then, wouldn't gurantee my return.

Basically, it would cut me off from the world I know now. If I do transfer, I will drop all account names. I wouldn't be able to bear all of you dangling right in front of me, something I used to be able to have, to see, to hold, to talk to, to cherish, and now I can't. I'm not that strong, and I know it. I'm just not that strong...

It's an epic battle between me, my mother, and my stepfather. My stepdad wants to move onto Birch, in which then I could continue to go to school, my mother though, she wants to move to Forest Lake, which is farther away, more sucluded, and has a horrible school system reputation. Basically, they have a VERY high drug rating and a VERY VERY high pregnancy rating, even white bear has a higher one than Centennial.

I don't want to lose my friends, but I'm afraid that if I did change school districts, most of you would just forget about me like I was nothing. I don't want that to happen, because I know I could NEVER forget any of you. You've left a  huge mark upon my life, and continue to do so every day with what you do and what you say. I just....don't want to lose my friends. Before, moving and changing districts was so easy, because no one liked me. They all thought I was a geek, a loser, and I didn't much like them either. Yea, not a win-win situation. So I was excited to leave. I hated this place too at first, because people were even meaner here. Before, all I had to deal with know-it-all rich snobs, now I have to deal with kids that are just plain out mean to new kids. But I met people, and gained a social life, now that I have that, and am seen to be a nice person most of the time, I don't want that to change, and start out from scratch again. It took me 5 years to get what I've got. I don't want to lose all that...

I don't want to lose all of you....

I almost got drunk at school, at fourteen
Where I almost made out with the Homecoming Queen
Who almost went on to be Miss Texas
But lost to a slut, with much bigger breast-es
I almost dropped out to move to LA
Where I was almost famous for almost a day

And I almost had you
But I guess that doesn't cut it
Almost loved you
I almost wished you would've loved me too

I almost held up a grocery store
Where I almost did five years and then seven more
Cause I almost got popped for a fight with a thug
Cause he almost made off with a bunch of the drugs
That I almost got hooked on cause you ran away
And I wish I would've had the nerve to ask you to stay

And I almost had you
But I guess that doesn't cut it
Almost had you
And I didn't even know it

You kept me guessin' and now I'm destined
To spend my time missing you
I almost wish you would've loved me too

Here I go, thinking 'bout all the things I could've done
I'm gonna need a forklift, cause all the baggage weighs a ton
(baggage weighs a ton)
I know we've had our problems, I can't remember one

I almost forgot to say something else
And if I can't fit it in, I'll keep it all to myself
I almost wrote a song about you today
But I tore it all up and then I threw it away

And I almost had you
But I guess that doesn't cut it
Almost had you
And I didn't even know it

You kept me guessin' and now I'm destined
To spend my time missing you
And I almost had you (almost had you)
Almost had you

I almost wish you would've loved me too (wish you would've loved me too)